Rebuffs

A stick was supporting me,
As I limped from one door to another.
Teary eyed & hope fading away
Faster than dust could gather.

A door would open sometime
Bringing a smiling face along,
Promising to reduce my despair
Like a perfect lyrics song.

But then they drew daggers too,
Adding to the collection of scars.
They singed the most though
With tips dipped in love farce.

I limp to the next door.
Only to be spit at, pushed and cursed.
My skin would be a canvas again for more daggers
For silent tears to roll down with lips pursed.

Now I don't knock on the doors.
Neither the daggers hurt.
I just walk past homes and temples.
Covered in dust, defeat and dirt. 

The Muse

Meeting them was just an excuse
To see the beauty at work.
Eyes partially hidden behind a screen
Hands furiously typing away.

Her perfect brows
Frowning in concentration
Chewing a pen in deep thought
And eyes closed to pray

She was fighting a loose strand
Craving for her attention.
But then she just saw me
Stopping dead my heart just for a while

Her expression was stoic
But a gentle smile escaped the lips.
That was all I wanted to see,
For me to try till end of the mile. 

I didn't linger much long
For the fear of my heart plopping out
And yelling out my love for her
Not yet I said to myself. "Not yet" I pray

The day would just go on
But I leave a piece of myself behind.
To see the beauty at work.
Eyes partially hidden behind a screen
Hands furiously typing away...

The Burden

The burden was getting heavier

It’s been a while,

Since I was dragging it along.

Across the plains it began

Moving on to the beaches

And then came the deserts.

My shoulders were wearing out

My legs giving away too.

The breathe was uneven

And the heartbeat through the roof.

Passersby looked at me in surprise

Friends gave a disapproving nod.

But I couldn’t just leave it lying around.

Huffed and puffed, but never gave up.

The burden was getting heavier

But I labored along.

I was looking for a helping hand

But none came forward.

I was looking for a respite

But none did appear.

Soaking in the rain,

Burning under the sun,

I labored along.

The destination was near, finally.

All the pain would be gone,

There’ll be sunshine again

And gentle breeze be blown.

But I couldn’t move ahead

As the burden had just grown

The feet felt weary

And the shoulders were torn.

I had to give up the burden

Else the dream was just gone.

It was time I realized.

That I let it all go,

The burden I was carrying

And the shackled chains

It wouldn't come off easy

I knew it all along

Down came my flashy blade

Only then it was all gone.

All it took was a little sacrifice

Of flesh and some blood.

But I was free.

Just a throbbing pain

And a gentle smile

I would heal again

With someone tending to me

I just closed my eyes

For all of it to see.

I chewed on my teeth

And sauntered towards her.

The baggage was all gone

Was all I whispered in her ear.

The smile that she flashed

Is all that I wanted to see

Those tears in her eyes

I saw love twirling in them

All just for me…

Deep Waters

It was a while
Since I was out.
Got woken up
From splashing of my hands
Trying to keep me afloat
Trying oh so desperately.

It seemed like an eternity
Swimming in deep waters.
Murky. Shark infested.
Going against the tide.

I've seen calm waters,
The lightening and the storms.
I've seen enemies float by,
And some friends too.
Safe and dry in their boats.
Smiling and waving away to glory
The same, plastered smiles.

Muscles torn and
Hope fading fast
I'll keep swimming
Into the deep, swirling waters.
Murky. Shark infested.

With a hope.
Of someone waking me up
And put an end to this misery
A pat? A hug? A kiss?

Someone did take pity on me
And hugged me tight.
To relieve me of pain
Of expectations and misplaced trust.

It was my companion,
My aid since eternity.
The deep swirling waters.
Murky. Shark infested.

And then finally. I smiled.